Ship’s Log–February 19th, 2015


Today my stress level was turned up to 11. I had a hearing scheduled for the evening which I have been dreading. For years.

The last time this application went into a public hearing, I had to be escorted to my car by a police officer though an angry, near-rioting crowd. We all knew that our client would have to appear in another public hearing, and pretty much everyone involved has worked to put it off as long as possible. The bill came due today, and so back before the angry public we went.

I ate a little too much today, coping with the anxiety badly. I wore my new Agent Carter inspired suit to buck myself up for the confrontation. The hearing wasn’t as bad as it could have been, mainly because there was a heavy police presence in the room and the commission took a heavy-handed approach to limiting the time each person had to speak as well as limiting the number of speakers by requiring that they sign up before the hearing. Even so, I got the sit there was 30 people voiced their displeasure and/or disgust at my applicant and his professionals (myself included). When the commission rather suddenly closed the hearing at 9:30 pm, I don’t know who was more surprised, me or the three hundred or so angry members of the public who had expected to be taking a louder, longer stand.

Mostly, though, the people there were polite even if upset at the application. There were just a few rude people, and most of that was aimed at the commission because the public was frustrated by a process that they did not understand. On the way out, though, there was one man standing there and shouting to each of us that we were a disgrace, like an angry Oprah handing out insults rather than cars: “You’re a disgrace! And you’re a disgrace! And you’re another disgrace!”

Fun times, that.

Distance to goal weight: 24.2 pounds



  • 1 1/2 small blueberry corn muffins
  • Smoothie: banana, blackberry, strawberry, frozen blueberries, mixed greens, flax and chia seed, and soy milk
  • Coffee with vanilla soy milk

Morning Snack:

  • Cup fo leftover pasta

Lunch (@2 pm):

  • Whole grain pita with hummus and kale salad
  • Sea salt potato chips
  • Coffee with vanilla soy milk


  • Leftover minestrone with a poached egg

Late Night:

  • Cabernet and M&M’s

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